I’ve had good relationships that ended badly, good relationships that ended well, and bad relationships that ended (obviously) badly. I casually dated in college, never really wanting to make a full commitment after getting my heart broken. So even though we weren’t “official” I still consider some people as an ex because of all the feelings involved and because there was inevitably a break up.
After a break up, it’s always easier to blame the other person. It makes you feel better to talk shit about them, to ignore them in public, to make yourself seem like the good guy. But I scrolled through lengthy conversations to find some texts from my exes that evoke emotion. It all just made me reflect on how fast you can fall in and out of love, how badly you can hurt someone without meaning to, and how – no matter how much you ignore it – sometimes you are the bad guy. These are 11 texts from 6 different people, dating from 2007 to 2015 – here’s almost 10 years of unsuccessful love:
(He ended up being angry at me a lot, actually, but mostly because I was being sucky)
One of many countless apologies we’ve exchanged.
His grammatical errors killed me, but he was always sweet.
I dug him a lot too.
I am pretty awesome though.
Makes me think about how imperfect I actually am.
Forever is not as long as you’d think it would be……
What can I say? When I fall, I fall hard.
Definitely not true, but I’ll take what I can get.