How I Finally Got The Dating Thing Right

I felt like I was single forever after my last long term relationship. I had made the choice to stay single, mostly because I was so aware of how I was kissing frogs that definitely weren’t going to turn into princes any time soon.

Every time I tried to date, I just couldn’t get comfortable. Reaching out to people I had lost touch with to spark something felt awkward. Meeting people for the first time and getting to know their whole life story felt like a lot of work. The whole thing was so exhausting.

It was so much easier to get what I want and then get out. Just scratch the surface a tiny bit until it’s time to leave. Because every time I tried to go deeper, I felt anxious and out of sorts. I just thought being in a committed relationship wasn’t for me.

What I didn’t realize at the time was where that anxiety was coming from. It wasn’t because dating was awkward or because it took a lot of work. It wasn’t because I didn’t want to get to know someone or love someone. It was because the people I was dating didn’t match me. My weird didn’t fit their weird.

Being your own kind of weird is when you are your complete self. You let that weird out when you’re with your best friends, goofing around with your siblings, when you really get to know someone. But not everyone’s weird matches yours and that becomes very apparent when you are dating.

I tried to force things that didn’t fit because everyone was telling me I was being too picky and I was telling myself that these things weren’t working out because I was the problem.

There is no magic answer to finding the person you’re supposed to be with. The only thing I can tell you is that when you find them, you won’t feel awkward. You won’t feel uncomfortable, anxious, or exhausted. Your weird will match their weird and then it all falls in to place.

It still takes work, but it’s fun work. And that’s how I got the dating thing right after many years of feeling wrong.

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15 thoughts on “How I Finally Got The Dating Thing Right

  1. I think am in this phase right now…
    I keep pushing everyone away because I feel am not ready that sometimes i think if am the problem.
    Hoping the phase fades away… but am not in a hurry for it to fade.. I want to embrace it too…maybe it will give me a chance to figure me out.

    Thanks for the beautiful post Rosie..

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  2. I agree with this post 100%! If ever you feel you’re not being the true authentic you at any point, it’s time to reexamine the relationship. In my last relationship, I viewed my ‘roll’ as supportive girlfriend, which sounds fine, but I lost myself in the relationship. The hard part about this situation is realizing it and correcting it.

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  3. Thank you for sharing this, I really needed to read something like this actually, I’m exactly in the phase you’re describing so facing the “real problem” is actually a realization… thank you!

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