Sometimes I find myself lying in bed at night and really unhappy with the way things are going for me. But I just can’t pinpoint what is making me feel that way. I think routine has a lot to do with it.
While others thrive on the 9-5 work schedule, three days a week gym regimen, and staying at home to tidy up on the weekends – I. Can’t. Stand. It.
Every day I wake up, go to work, come home, make dinner, take a nap, go to the gym, go to bed. Nothing ever changes and when it does, it doesn’t make a big enough impact on my life for me to feel like I’m changing it up.
And the more routine my life gets, the more boring other aspects of it become. I start wearing less make up, start caring less about how I look. I don’t get as excited for vacations because I know the routine is just a three day weekend away.
I like planning ahead, I like knowing what my week is going to look like. What I can’t stand is the consistency of boredom, the feeling that things might not ever change. And then I’m reminded to switch things up. I start wearing lipstick to work and do something fun on a week day night.
But eventually, since my life inevitable revolves around routine, I fall back into my boring and unhappy ways. Routine may be helpful to some, but it sucks for me.
It’s a conundrum for me because I’d love to have a routine of shit that must get done with enough adventure and unpredictability mixed in to make it where I’d want to wear lipstick every day if I was the lipstick wearing type. I’d like for a routine to cover all that mundane stuff – early, if possible – so that I can feel free to schedule time for churros and binge-watching Hawaii 5-0. Maybe we could hope for an algorithm that gives us enough structure to keep us from getting fired but switches up our routine when our creative and mischievous reserves start to run low.
I’ll get on this, and send you an invite.
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yes please let me know if you can figure something out haha!
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Try and get out of routine if you can, the unhappiness maybe because you’re not meant to endure it.
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ugh I’m going to try but I always fall back into it, work is the same thing five days a week which is a majority of my life so it’s hard not to be in a routine!
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I’m the same and it grates more as I get older. You just have to do your best and maybe find something that isn’t 9 – 5 or work for yourself
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I’m the same way! Routine makes me lazy and un-involved
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