Doubting Myself

When I got the position I work in now, I simply told everyone that I was moving to take a new position. That I was staying with my company and doing a little bit more than I was doing before. I didn’t go around saying I got a promotion, I just didn’t see it like that.

It’s funny how much doubt we have in ourselves and how we truly fail to acknowledge our accomplishments. I always feel like I’ve just gotten lucky. But a promotion is a big deal, I should’ve celebrated with champagne and congratulations. I brushed it all off, though, I didn’t take the time to really appreciate my win.

When people took the time to dig a bit about my new job, I would then mention that it was a promotion. I was greeted with fist bumps, congrats, and kind words. Things I didn’t expect at all and things that truly made me feel good. Other people acknowledged my accomplishment, but I still didn’t see it that way because of all of my self doubt.

Writing this, I realize how little worth I apply to myself. How I made the move to New Hampshire alone and started a new job alone that I’m far from failing at. I actually feel at the end of each week I’m doing well, but I don’t do anything to celebrate that.

This weekend, I’m going to go out to dinner. I’m going to celebrate myself and my accomplishments. I’m going to put my doubts aside for a little bit and really recognize how far I’ve come. There aren’t many people who have done what I do at my age and it’s time I start giving myself more love.

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17 thoughts on “Doubting Myself

  1. You should be very proud of your accomplishments but I can relate to this as well. When it comes to my writing; I have gotten a lot of praise but its hard for me handle and accept. I still beat myself and think my writing is that great; even if people say otherwise. I think when we have spent most of lives doubting ourselves; it’s a hard habit to break. I wish the best of luck and hope you can gain more confidence in yourself

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  2. You’re so right about mot many people of your age accomplishing what you have Rosie. It’s not easy and you should be so proud of yourself. There’s nothing at all wrong in feeling good about personal achievements. You don’t have to shout them out from the rooftops but at least allow yourself to feel good and appreciate what you have achieved. Well done.

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  3. Good for you, Rosie!! It really is so important to recognize our accomplishments, but I’m the same way–it’s really easy for me to brush off what I’ve done well. I tend to only see my faults. I’m so glad you’ve recognized this and will be celebrating this weekend!! Congrats, by the way!

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