I’ve dealt with skin issues for a long time. I was around 13 when I first started breaking out with acne that wasn’t even localized to my face. And it was mortifying to me. I started wearing make up at a young age because of it and that stemmed wearing make up almost every single day for the rest of my life.
My friends and even boyfriends rarely saw me without make up. If I was sleeping over somewhere, I would keep my make up on overnight so I’d still have some coverage in the morning. If I was going swimming, I’d go in with my makeup then run to the bathroom to fix it before anyone noticed.
And this wasn’t just localized to my early teens. This went on through my twenties.
My acne cleared from ages 17-21 because I went on Accutane, a very intense prescription, when I was 16. Accutane basically sucks you dry of any oils. It causes nose bleeds, terribly chapped lips, and joint pain. It can cause horrible birth defects if you get pregnant and you can’t drink alcohol because of the toll it takes on your organs. But it cleared up my acne.
I still wore makeup every day – it’s like when you look back at photos and see how skinny you were but at the time you thought you were fat. I always saw acne.
After I graduated college, I began to slip into adult acne. I always wore make up. I avoided certain clothing, I didn’t go swimming, I wouldn’t go out without some coverage on my face. I felt terrible and finally made the jump to try Accutane again. Even though the side effects are uncomfortable, I was tired of being in my twenties with teenage acne.
I wish I could offer some sort of “be comfortable in your own skin!” advice, but I can’t. I’ve never been comfortable with my acne. It even left me with lots of scarring and large pores that I’m uncomfortable with, but since my acne is clearing I’ve tried to be more comfortable in my own skin.
It’s a battle and it’s not just a problem for kids. I’m happy to be back on a path to clear skin, but I just wanted to write this to show that I understand the struggle and you’re definitely not alone no matter how old you are.