Comprehending The Randomness Of Life

I’m an overthinker which sometimes leads to me being stuck in this rut of confusion because I can’t comprehend life. I can’t comprehend death. I just don’t get it.

As yesterday was 9/11, I read this article. And watched a video that included a lot of audio from the day. The correspondence from plane to airports, voicemails left from the planes and the towers. All of it completely gutted me. I read the article because it explained a little how I was feeling. I just don’t get it.

How rescheduling your flight may have caused your death. Ironing your shirt saved your life. It’s all so hard to comprehend.

And sometimes I think about how I got to where I am at all. All the randomness and choices that I brushed off as mundane that actually changed the course of my life. I originally had all my sights set on going to college in North Carolina, but last minute stayed in New Jersey and had the time of my life. I took the job I have over three years ago and never thought it would land me in New Hampshire. My boyfriend and I had plans to go to a night market last year and decided not to go because we were tired. There was a shooting there that weekend.

Every tiny decision could change your life, but it’s all just so random. You are here one minute. You are gone and just not a breathing or thinking person anymore the next. Why try to sit here and understand it? It’s just how my brain works and yes, it keeps me up at night.

9 thoughts on “Comprehending The Randomness Of Life

  1. Wow! yeah, you never know. I just lost a friend on Labor Day. He died hiking on a trail in Malibu of overexposure and heat exhaustion. And he was experienced.

    I was listening to that audio also… chilling. I just find it hard to believe our own military couldn’t intercept the planes, and we supposedly have the strongest military presence worldwide. Just doesn’t make sense to me.

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  2. I think about this often and whenever my mind goes to these thoughts, it actually helps to put things into perspective. When I’m stressing about stupid, trivial things, I think, “I could die tomorrow. This isn’t important.” I know it’s sounds overly dramatic but it’s true. Life is random and unpredictable. Even the healthiest, youngest person could get into a fatal car accident.

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  3. I get it. I really do. A simple delay can extend or end your life. There will always be a randomness to everything we do. Think of it as part of the ingredients that goes into life. Not just our life but all life. That one word – Random – is a tiny piece of the puzzle that makes up who we are. I hate it but it’s not going anywhere.

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  4. I’m a classic overthinker too. I assume people just think I’m quiet but my thoughts are just running a million miles a minute. That is why I blog, so I can just get a few of them out there. Crazy how you just avoided a shooting!

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    1. Me too! I really use my blog just to get out all the things that are driving me crazy lol but yea the randomness of it all is insane, I knew a coworker who was going to that same event and had to text him the next day to make sure he was okay. Chilling.

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