I’ve been struggling with imposter syndrome a lot recently. My boyfriend and I have had to have a lot of discussion about our future careers. Where we see ourselves going, where we would need to live, what we really want to do. And it makes me question myself a lot.
I’ve been with the same organization for 3.5 years now, I could probably consider it my first job out of college. I started small, got a promotion, and moved to New Hampshire. I was very positive I could do the job when I got the promotion, but the positivity comes and goes now. As I think it does with anyone and any job – rarely is anyone 100% good at something 100% of the time.
But if I had to get a new job…would I be able to do it? I’ve learned most of what I know about PR/Communications on the job. And the rest (being social media/blogging) was self taught. But what I’ve learned on the job could be so specific to this job – would I be able to do it anywhere else? Would I even be good at it if I can’t be good at it all the time at somewhere I’ve worked for over 3 years?
What if this is all I know how to do? Of course I could try learning new things, a new job, a new company. But what if I couldn’t do it? I feel like a fraud even looking at jobs out there and reading the descriptions. Because how can I consider myself a professional when all of these things seem so far out of my depth? My own life now seems so far out of my depth.
What if what I’m doing now career wise and life wise is all I know how to do?