If you read my word for 2020, you’ll know I’ve decided to assign the word “acceptance” to this year. It’s something I’ve been think about a lot lately, I even wrote about it a little bit in my resisting happiness post.
If there’s one thing I could wish for myself, it would be the ability to stop overthinking things. I’m convinced no one thinks about things as much as I do. Small things, big things, life things, things that have happened in the past. I think about the best and worst case scenarios and what scenario my life fits into now.
I think about my job. Am I happy? How long should I stay here? Am I doing well?
I think about my relationship. Am I ready for forever? Is this how it’s going to be forever? Am I happy with forever?
I think about where I am, right now in life. What does my life need to be like in 5 years? What decisions need to be made? Should we stay here, should we move?
It’s exhausting and I wish I could just STOP thinking about it. Because maybe if I stopped thinking about it, everything would just be. And maybe I would just be happy with that. Let things come and go as they please, go with the flow of life. Stop analyzing everything to the point where I’m basically convincing myself that I just need some kind of change.
I wish I could settle. I wish I could stop thinking and accept my life the way it is.
Rosie Culture 
Over analysing everything isn’t a great way to be, you just end up worrying and focusing on the negatives and actually waiting for things to go wrong. Each day is a gift, try just to concentrate on the good things in your life and just enjoy them. You can never predict what is going to happen as life has a way of tripping you up so why bother worrying?
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I agree, I wish my brain would just go with the flow!
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I know exactly what you mean. I am just the same and I am not liking it. I even question my happiness . I wonder if I deserve it. I decided to let it all go and see the light in my life. I hope I would be able to do that
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I can totally relate to all of that, Rosie! I have to keep telling myself that God is in control and I’m not.
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Creative people are restless. Blame your imagination for this. 🙂
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ah yes it’s a blessing and a burden!
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I’m the same way! And sometimes it sucks because there are times when I know things are fine and I’m doing fine but I’m wondering if I should be doing more or could be doing more.
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Overthinking is such a big part of my identity, and it can be tough to be hyper-aware, all the time. It’d be nice to get a break.
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I think it is pretty natural to think about past present and future , but in the long run if you get close to God , you can feel the difference and the peace of mind gradually.
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