Turns out, I wasn’t lying to myself. My go-to excuses in life are that I’m too tired or I don’t have the time.
With the stay at home orders, I have more time on my hands. My work day is kind of scattered, I never know when things will pop up. So that leaves some scattered free time and then weekends with absolutely nothing to do.
I used to come home from work every day at 5:00 PM and say I’m too tired to go to the gym. Too tired to cook.
I used to start projects and leave them unfinished. Books would be opened and then never reopened, if only I had more time.
I’m kind of proud of myself for taking advantage of this weird time where I have opportunities to better myself. I could have easily decided to sleep more, eat more, and be lazy. An old version of me definitely would have done that and wouldn’t benefited from it at all. I keep telling myself when this is all over, I won’t have time and I will be tired again so to try to take advantage of what I have now for the time being.
I know that my life right now is a special case, we have essential workers out there risking their health for us who absolutely have no free time and are exhausted. I hope for their sake, when this is all over, they can take a mental health day. I really feel for them.
One thing I’ve been focusing on is controlling the controllable. I can only make the best of my own situation, and for now I have more time.