When someone says to me a year like 2012, I think oh that wasn’t long ago. It was just a year or two back, right?
But in 2012, I was in my freshman year of college. 2012 was 8 years ago which actually is a lot. I can’t believe how much time has passed since I graduated in 2015.
While I was in college, everyone said not to rush through it. That you’d look back and wish you had more than 4 years. And it’s true, but it’s not advice I usually give. Because we can’t help but to rush through things. When I was in high school I just wanted to be in college, when I was in college I just wanted to give my liver and my brain a break and be out in the working world, and now I just want to hurry up and retire.
My college experience was definitely a double edged sword. I went through all that shit you have to go through to find yourself, which isn’t exactly a pain free process. On one hand, I learned a lot. I met some really great friends. I have some really epic stories. I got to live with my best friends for years and share their clothes, and laughs, and tears – I just always had someone there who was down to do something, anything.
On the other hand, I had terrible coping mechanisms for stress and depression. I did a lot of things I regret, some that are good stories and some that still make me sick to my stomach. I didn’t work as hard as I should have. I wasn’t as good of a person as I should have been.
Nonetheless, I made it out and into the real world. And I still miss those good parts about college a lot, who wouldn’t? But my experience in those 4 years set me up to be successful now which I am grateful for.
And it’s kind of embarrassing to admit, but 5 years later I’m still trying to get over some of those painful college lessons. Some relationships and memories stay with me and and effect me to this day. I carry a lot with me that I should’ve dropped long ago, but that’s just part of growing up.
5 years out of college and I’ll say it – time flies. And life is different. But there’s a lot of good happening now that I never really expected. I think college me would be proud, but a little disappointed in how lame I’ve become. 😉