I’m a pessimist. Not because I see the world as only bad, even though it seems that way a lot of the time. But I’m a pessimist because I always expect the worst – that way I’m rarely ever disappointed.
I don’t like to get my hopes up just to be let down. It’s happened so many times before. So I’ve just started treating life decisions as temporary. We’ll temporarily move out of state. We’ll temporarily date. I’ll temporarily take this job.
Because I look at it as all good things eventually come to an end and if I make the decision as a temporary one, I’m less disappointed when it doesn’t work out.
But it’s safe to say a lot of my temporary decisions are becoming more and more permanent. And by treating them the way I’m treating them, I’m held back. I don’t have any forward thinking. At some point, these things just aren’t temporary anymore and i need to make some real decisions about my life.
It’s something I struggle with, because by making these decisions I’m opening myself up to a world of disappointment.