Some people can really take stress. Some people really can’t. And then there’s me who pretends that I can take it and then my body starts falling to pieces because my bad mental health starts to leak into my bad physical health.
I can’t really see it coming. Like I know that I’ve been having a few stressful days and that my brain won’t let me sleep and I’m having a hard time getting to the gym. But then I let it build and I get to the gym and feel like I can barely breathe. My allergies start to fog up my brain. My muscles hurt.
I have a real physical reaction to stress if I start mismanaging it and my body is not shy in letting me know that I need to chill the fuck out.
For instance, my mind has been nonstop lately. More than usual because I am unhappy with the social climate of my country, I feel like I need to do more, and then on top of that there is a global pandemic, and on top of that work has really just been task after task with looming layoffs in the future.
PHEW. I got tired and stressed just typing that.
I was trying to counteract the stress in small ways. I did a face mask, I did a small amount of yoga, I went out for drinks. But in reality my body won’t feel better until my mind feels better, so I need to start counteracting it in much bigger ways with some brain breaks, activities that make me happy, and some time in the sun.