It’s officially been two months since I was last employed. It’s not the worst thing, I’ve been enjoying my free time especially as we prepare to move back to NJ. I can tell this break was a much-needed one, I’ve been sleeping better and just generally happier than I was when I was working.
I’ve had a couple phone interviews, nothing yet that has felt like a good fit and I think that has been felt on both ends. At least I have some interview practice.
The only thing I can’t stand is the unknown. I could say that I want to be spontaneous until I’m blue in the face, but it will never happen.
I hate playing it by ear, I can’t stand making plans without a set time and date, I don’t like the unknown. But that’s basically all my life is right now, a lot of unknown.
I can’t make any decisions because anything long term is highly dependent on the short term. Where we live in NJ is based off of where I get a job. When I get a job and where it will be is highly unknown – so what do I do in the meantime?
So I feel like my whole life is basically on hold. Just this period of limbo where I’m floating around and hoping that something will come my way soon. I hate the waiting and I hate the unknown.