How The Pandemic Made Me Lose A Part Of Myself

I think the pandemic took something from everyone. For some, it may be worse than others. But no matter what it is, it’s valid because 2020 through 2021 has just been a hot mess.

For me, I’ve recently begun to see what the pandemic had taken away from me. And that was just pure, unworried, joyful days.

I really treasure my weekends and time off. I use it as a complete break from my daily average life. I use it as a break from thinking about work and worrying about normal adult things. I like to go on vacation, travel, try new things, sit out in the sunshine. Think about nothing except what I’m currently doing.

The pandemic took days like that away from me. It really became all work, no play. All responsibilities and no fun.

Until a few weeks ago, I hadn’t had a carefree day like this since maybe August? Which is almost like a year ago.

Recently, we went to Asbury Park and went paddle boating which I had never done. Then we went to see the cherry blossoms in a park in NJ that has more cherry blossoms than Washington DC!

At the beginning of the pandemic, I tried to keep implementing these things into our weekends. We went to see New Hampshire oddities and explored the state quite a bit. But pandemic fatigue set in hard and we just stopped.

These past couple weekends have reminded me how good it feels to be tired after a fun day. How much I love exploring. And I hate that the pandemic took my energy to do these things away from me.