When it comes to my career, I’ve always felt like I was just going wherever life takes me. It’s been hard to carve out a path.
I recently left the job I got after getting laid off and started a new job. Getting laid off was a really big blow, I had been with the company for over 4 years and it was really all I knew.
I was extremely nervous to start a new job after getting laid off. I was starting all over and unfortunately, if you don’t have a great foundation to start with along with support from your coworkers, the nerves and doubt just grow and grow.
I moved on from that job because I was nervous I was putting myself in a place mentally that I wouldn’t really recover from. Starting my new job, I felt like my head was underwater for the first week.
But as the days have gone on, things have improved. I always struggle with wanting to be good at things as soon as I start them, just ask the hundreds of hobbies I’ve abandoned. I just keep reminding myself that no one knows everything on day 1 and this new job is truly a growth opportunity so I need to accept that I will be learning and probably failing from time to time.
I admit, imposter syndrome got me good at first, but hopefully it won’t defeat me.