I recently wrote about how I feel like I’m always on the defense and trying to prove myself.
Sometimes I do so to such a fault I lose a sense of humility and being grounded. I just get so tired of being doubted or questioned that I no longer believe that I could be wrong in that situation. It’s my way or the highway.
It’s something I’m working on because I think I take things far too personally when most people don’t mean it that way.
But it’s hard when you have imposter syndrome to believe in yourself but also accept the help of others without looking weak or incapable.
I often have to take a step back and remember that I can’t go through life with my walls up and I really need to be aware how others perceive me. For a long time in my life I was selfish because I had to be to protect myself. As I grow older, I need to learn to let that part of me go.