Last year I changed my job, got a new job, got engaged. It was a lot of change around me, but not necessarily inside me.
Since then, I’ve been through a lot of growth periods that have just been a bit overwhelming to me. Sometimes I just feel like my old self is stuffed inside a shell of my new self and I’m torn on who to let out. It especially depends on who I’m around.
Who I am at home is different than who I am at work which is different from who I am around friends or even family.
It’s kind of exhausting…and the solution would be easy if I could be one version of myself. Unfortunately that’s not really the way the world works. It feels like we have to cater ourselves to the world, making sure we’re palatable to the work place or for a family party. And when you’re getting pulled into so many directions and jumping from personality to personality, you can even begin to forget who you are in the first place.