Losing Who You Are

I just purged my closet. I gathered up at least 50% of the clothes I had and donated them. It seems a little drastic, but it needed to be done. I just don’t feel like myself anymore, I don’t even know who that person is.

I’ve gotten so caught up in so many webs. I’m tied to the version of myself that works a 9-5 job, the version of myself that is a friendly blogger, the version of myself that is a punk pop dork, the version of myself that kind of hates everyone, the version of myself that is a perfect girlfriend and dog mom, and the version of myself that just wants to lay in bed all day.

How can one person be pulled in so many different directions?

I looked at my closet and realized I didn’t identify with any of the clothing in there. I bought them because they’re work appropriate or because I see all the girls on Instagram wearing them. And then hidden inside were a few pieces that really felt like me and that just seemed wrong. Even if I’m going to be pulled in all of those directions, I can at least have a common thread.

So I bought a bunch of second hand clothes that felt like me (most of them in the color black…) and I’m starting fresh to find myself again. I have to admit I’ve been in an appearance slump for a while. I thought about drastically changing my hair, I’ve gone to the gym a lot more, but nothing was really hitting the spot for me. I also have to admit that I’ve been watching a lot of Queer Eye lately which has inspired me to stop being so hard on myself and to just try to love myself. Even if I have a thousand versions of me, I have to love my core.

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Happy Birthday To Me

Today I turned 25! I am feeling pretty old now, for a while I’ve been clinging to this whole “post grad” thing, but now that I’ve been out of college for 3 years I’m basically just an adult.

I don’t get ID’ed anymore, the only people who think I still look like a college student are my dentists, and when I visited my sorority a month ago and told them when I pledged they all gaped at me and couldn’t believe how long ago that was. SIGH.

Day to day, I feel pretty stressed about my life. But looking back today, I am very happy with how much I’ve accomplished and where I am. I’m stable, I’ve found myself, and there is so much exploring to be done.

I’ve been writing this blog since I was 21 – some of you have actually been here from the beginning so just to make you all feel old, you’ve been reading my blog for four years of my life!! It’s unbelievable to me.

Thank you to all my og readers and thank you to all my new ones. I am literally always in awe when someone tells me they read my blog and enjoy/relate to what I write because even after all these years I feel like why would anyone care about what I have to say?

I really appreciate all of you, thank you for making my years that much more enjoyable. ๐Ÿ™‚

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Blogger Burnout

Every once in a while, when I’m too busy to blog, I throw up a post giving a shout out to bloggers I follow that I think other people should also follow.

I had some time to go through some of the posts like that I’ve put up over the years and was very sad to see how many blogs were inactive. I should’ve noticed they had been gone, but as new followers join my blog I end up just keeping in touch with people that keep in touch with me and whoever else is popping up on my reader.

I totally get blogger burnout. There have been so many times when I sat down to publish a post or Instagram and thought – does anyone really care? I put a decent amount of time into everything blog related and a lot of the time it feels like no one is even listening.

Especially on Instagram, I feel like there is so much mumbo jumbo about whether my picture looks good, my hashtags are good, etc. Then I’m worried about if I’m getting my personality across, if people actually like the products I promote, if I’m authentic like I’m trying to be or just as fake as the many beautifully filtered and curated feeds out there.

Then I’ll get a message or a comment from someone telling me how my blog has helped them or answering a question I left at the bottom of my post. And I’m inspired to keep going.

If you’re a reader, know that bloggers really do appreciate knowing that you like their blog. Whether you throw them a like, a comment, or an email. I am definitely more prone to staying on the silent side when it comes to expressing how I feel about something. I think about it like this, though, if I liked someone’s dress then I could make their day by just coming out of my shell a little bit to tell them I like it. The same goes with reaching out to your favorite bloggers.

If you’re a blogger, I know how hard it is to write to what feels like no one. But that one person you could help with your blog exists and they’ll find you eventually. Do it for yourself, but do it for them too.

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The Hookup On: Flossolution

I’m about to get pretty real here. After I graduated college, I went to the dentist and found out I had 7 cavities and my teeth were in pretty bad shape thanks to the college lifestyle and an old dentist who wasn’t treating me properly.

Ever since then, I brush my teeth twice a day, floss every day, and use mouth wash every day to protect my gums.

My teeth have always been an area of concern for me. I had the works of dentistry done to me when I was little – including getting a wrong tooth pulled, braces with lots of rubber bands, and more.

I recently got to try the Flossolution Mini and I think my dentist is going to be very happy with me. I floss every day, but let’s face it – I’m lazy. I don’t reach back far enough or wiggle around enough. This little tool is fast and painless and makes flossing so easy! It even comes with a little suction cup so you can attach it to your mirror and always remember to floss! They’re bogo right now at Flossolution.com

I’m trying to avoid the traumatic dentistry experience of my childhood by taking care of my teeth now. It seems so silly to have to stress it, but trust me start taking care of yourself so you don’t have to regret it later.

This is a sponsored post. All opinions are mine.

Are You On Social Media?

I’m not going to lie guys, I am struggling with my Instagram account right now. I reached my goal of 6,500 followers, started worrying less about the perfection of my content, and started sharing my life through my stories and my engagement plummeted. I know a lot of bloggers/influencers are struggling right now, so I like to share out my links and ask that you drop your links here so we can all support each other! ๐Ÿ™‚

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The Hookup On: My First Blogger Event!

This weekend I went to my first blogger event at 2nd 2 None Studioย in Hackensack, NJ! The studio was beautiful, I’ve never really been to a studio that had such a wide range of services. They had a wonderful makeup and hair area, multiple rooms that were gorgeously decorated for photoshoots, a room for podcast recording, and a room for videography. They also have a massive infinity wall that would be great for any photos! The space was really cool and I would highly recommend checking them out for any media needs you have if you’re in the area.

I had the opportunity to meet with some companies and YouTubers, bloggers, and influencers from New Jersey – which was awesome because NJ influencers aren’t easy to come by. We don’t have any major cities, so most NJ influencers identify with Philly and New York City instead of New Jersey.

I also got the chance to receive and test products from these companies:

  • Kiss Makeup
  • SaeHan
  • La Fresca
  • SmartCare
  • Nicka K Makeup
  • Unique Freak Hair Dye
  • Better Life Essential Oil
  • Colageno Perfecto
  • 207 New York Charcoal Mask

I really love the 207 New York Charcoal Mask, but I will warn you all that it’s a little painful to peel off! The Ienvy lashes by KISS are beautiful and seem very easy to apply, even for a beginner lash user like me! The La Fresca feminine hygiene products are very handy and smell great. Lastly, the Nicka K lip gloss is so fun and flirty, I can’t wait to wear it out!

All in all, the blogger event was great and I can’t wait for my next one! ๐Ÿ™‚

I attended this event in exchange for an honest review, all opinions are mine.