Do You Have Imposter Syndrome?

Thanks to a Buzzfeed quiz, I learned about imposter syndrome this week. Wikipedia describes the syndrome as a psychological pattern in which an individual doubts their accomplishments and has a  fear of being exposed as a fraud. Even though there is evidence of their accomplishments and competence, those with the syndrome chalk up their success to luck or something similar.

And when I read that I was like “holy shiz I definitely have that.” For pretty much my whole entire life, I’ve never really thought that I’ve deserved anything. I’ve done a lot of great things in my life and accomplished a lot, and all of those things have surprised me.

When I got into all of the colleges I applied to (granted, I didn’t really reach) I was genuinely shocked because up until that point I didn’t know I could do anything right. And in my first year of college I got a job as a tour guide and I was like what kind of magic did I bewitch on them for them to think I would actually be a good fit for this?

And then I got into my sorority and I was so confused that people actually liked me. And then I got a good internship and I graduated from college. I got a good job and then an even better job.

I thought it was either luck or (if I’m being honest) I’ve chalked A LOT of it up to being a decently attractive female. Yupp, I don’t really think I’ve deserved any of this but I’ve gotten by because I’m not that terrible to look at

And it’s such a toxic way to think. I’ve always been intelligent, even if I suck at school. I’m not great at coming out of my shell, but I am great at talking about the things I’m passionate about. I got really good grades in college and I learned a lot about myself and taught myself a lot about the field I work in. How could I think I don’t deserve any of this, that I’m a fraud?

I don’t think it’s rare, I don’t think anyone of us get the credit we deserve and we especially don’t give it to ourselves. But if we don’t, really, who will?

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It’s Okay To Not Reach Your Goals

Making goals put my life into a new perspective. I realized all that I wanted to do, all that I can do, and all that I can look forward to. It made life just that much more exciting to live.

The possibilities can seem endless when you’re writing down your goals. Because you can write down ones that are attainable. You can write down long term and short term. You can write down ones that are essentially you reaching for the stars.

And sometimes you will reach the stars. Sometimes you’ll blow your own mine and complete the goal you’d never though you’d complete.

But sometimes you won’t reach your goals. And that’s okay too. Because as harsh as the word “failure” is, it’s okay to fail. It puts you back on track to realize that not everything comes easy. Some things take a lot of hard work, and even that won’t get you there.

It’s okay to fail because then you know what changes to make and you’ll work harder towards your goals next time.  Stop looking at failure as a negative and look at it as a positive. Take failure as a lesson. As long as you continue to learn and grow, to push past your boundaries and attempt to shatter your goals, then it’s okay to not complete them every once in a while.

You can crush that goal, but you can’t let a little failure get in the way.

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