Winter Bucket List

I finally have to accept that winter is here.  Luckily, the holidays are just around the corner and that’s an exciting and fun time to me! 🙂 My winter bucket lists are usually pretty small because I find it harder to get motivated when it’s so cold and dark outside. I might add more as time passes! Here’s my list for this winter – what’s one thing you want to do this season?

  1. Go to Terceira Island!
  2. Finish 2 books
  3. Learn to knit/crochet a blanket
  4. Go somewhere by myself
  5. Find a new apartment
  6. Move out
  7. Become a better runner
  8. 6,500 Instagram followers
  9. 2,500 WordPress followers
  10. 1,000 Twitter followers
  11. Plan a weekend trip
  12. Become more present

The Problem With My Blog

My blogging niche started out as dating-focused and slowly turned into a lifestyle/travel/relationship/millennial blog. So, a lifestyle niche.

But the dating aspect of my blog has never really gone away. Mostly because I find relationships fascinating and because love is ever evolving. A lot of people can relate to the different stages I ‘ve been through in my relationships, I’m glad it helps them and it definitely helps me.

The problem with my blog is that I’ve become too introspective when it comes to dating. I honestly know too much about relationships. It makes dating harder than it should be. Because I know all about the lows and I know all about the highs. I know about the problems of many different couples, as well as my own.

I know things can go downhill fast, faster than you fell in love. The problem with my blog is all of this knowledge and information I dug up for myself is now weighing me down.

Every relationship now comes with the millions of questions I have asked over the two years I’ve been blogging. Am I settling? Am I happy? Is this just like the last relationship? Am I wasting my time? Am I really in love?

And it’s honestly frustrating because, being an over-thinker, I can barely be in the moment and enjoy anything. Now being especially introspective towards my relationship, every couple of weeks I have a panic attack about whether or not this is the right thing.

I’ve preached for so long about looking inside yourself and finding happiness and not letting a relationship get the best of you. I’ve hailed independence and knowing and growing yourself. But when it all comes down to it, can I practice what I preach when I know too much to even let my relationship breathe?

My blog was all peachy and great when I was single, but now that I’m not…there is a problem with my blog.

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