How Routine Is Unhelpful For Me

Sometimes I find myself lying in bed at night and really unhappy with the way things are going for me. But I just can’t pinpoint what is making me feel that way. I think routine has a lot to do with it.

While others thrive on the 9-5 work schedule, three days a week gym regimen, and staying at home to tidy up on the weekends – I. Can’t. Stand. It.

Every day I wake up, go to work, come home, make dinner, take a nap, go to the gym, go to bed. Nothing ever changes and when it does, it doesn’t make a big enough impact on my life for me to feel like I’m changing it up.

And the more routine my life gets, the more boring other aspects of it become. I start wearing less make up, start caring less about how I look. I don’t get as excited for vacations because I know the routine is just a three day weekend away.

I like planning ahead, I like knowing what my week is going to look like. What I can’t stand is the consistency of boredom, the feeling that things might not ever change. And then I’m reminded to switch things up. I start wearing lipstick to work and do something fun on a week day night.

But eventually, since my life inevitable revolves around routine, I fall back into my boring and unhappy ways. Routine may be helpful to some, but it sucks for me.

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Happy Birthday To Me!

This year’s birthday feels a little different and unexciting than they have in the past. I am 24 years old today! 23 was a challenging year, I had to grow up a lot and survive in the real world. I’m in a relationship and had to kind of relearn what it was like to be part of a couple. 23 was a learning experience, but that’s what life’s all about – right?

Thank you all who have been following along with me since I was 20 years old (weird, right?!) This blog has transformed over the years and I owe a lot to you guys. And thank you to anyone who has been following even for one year, one week, one day, or one hour! I am so appreciative of the support.

As a birthday present to me, I’d love if you could reblog or link back to me in the following weeks. I’m working on getting 2,000 WordPress followers and I’m at 1,700 so I have a little bit of a ways to go.

OR

If you’re feeling charitable, I’d love for you to donate here: https://my.charitywater.org/matt-hoffman-2/matt-hoffman.  We are working towards getting $1000 to provide others with clean drinking water.

Thanks again to everyone who is reading this! I already kind of celebrated my birthday by traveling to Montreal last weekend, it was a blast and I will be writing about it soon ! Stay tuned and cheers to 24 years old.

xoxo

Rosie

Montreal Advice Needed!

Hi guys!

At the end of the month I will be heading to Montreal and seriously can’t wait!! I have a loose itinerary of what we will be doing, but I’d love to get some suggestions from anyone who has ever been there or lives there!

We will be staying in downtown Montreal. I would love suggestions for things to do as well as your favorite bars and restaurants.

Thanks in advance for all of your help!

xoxo

Rosie

Why I Wear Lipstick On Tuesdays

Most people hate Mondays. And I understand why. You come back into work from a fun weekend with tons of emails and a lagging brain.

But I don’t hate Mondays. I like coming in refreshed from the weekend and catching up on everything. It’s Tuesdays, the day where all of my work piles up on me, that really causes me a lot of stress.

It got to the point where the dread was so heavy that I needed to figure out something to do. Our office tries to not wear black on Tuesday, because let’s face it we all wear black probably way too often. But apparently it’s also bad for your chakra – I don’t know if this is true, but I can’t really afford any more bad juju.

I also took it upon myself to wear lipstick on Tuesdays. It is just the one thing that makes me feel pretty and the one thing that brightens my day. I start my Tuesdays with a bright pink smile and that makes it just the tiniest bit better.

It’s the little things that make a big difference. We can’t always make the changes we want, I can’t just not come into work on Tuesdays. But I can make the whole experience a little brighter and better.

And that’s how I try to approach everything in life. I might not be able to change the bad things completely, but I can make them a little more bearable if I try.

When Your Brain Is In Summer Mode

I don’t know about you guys, but around where I live it has been 70 and sunny every day. It is making work extremely hard.

When it first started getting nice, I came in on a Monday and had the most Mondayest Monday ever. I personally don’t mind Mondays too much, because they are catch up days and relatively easy. It’s Tuesdays I don’t like, but this Monday was extremely hard.

It got nicer throughout the week and I came in the next Monday and just could not get my brain to work. I couldn’t get the simplest of tasks down. I was emailing the wrong people and attaching the wrong documents. I just could not hang.

My brain is on total summer mode right now. It doesn’t help that I haven’t taken a real vacation day since January, my last actual vacation day was spent going to 4 different doctor appointments, superrrr exciting.

Now I am just trying to get back on track. I am making lists and going outside for lunch and planning trips for the future to keep my brain occupied. I think this is the first time I ever wished for it to not be nice out since I’m stuck inside from 9-5 for 5 days out of the week.

I really need to stop being tired and get outside after work and do some fun things. I’ve been in winter mode so long, I’m still trying to adjust.

What do you guys do when your brain is in summer mode?

hc
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That Was So Long Ago

Are you one of those people that sometimes stays up until 2 AM and thinks about that really embarrassing time that you jumped off the swings in preschool and everyone saw your teddy bear underwear?

I am and that’s a true story.

I think about the sad, bad, embarrassing moments a lot of the time and work myself into an anxiety about it. I’ll stay awake until the sun rises over something that happened years ago.

And I wonder why I’m even thinking about it or why it still matters, but I am and it does. Even though I can’t do anything about it now.

I can’t do anything about it now. That’s what I tell myself every night when I’m thinking too much or on my drive home from work when I had a bad day. It’s time to start over, it’s time to wipe the slate, its time to forget about it and try harder tomorrow.

Sometimes I get anxiety when ex boyfriends try to contact me. Because every single relationship ended badly and every single guy reminds me of that. But why does it matter? Why do I care? It was so long ago. I can’t do anything about it now.

And that’s my mantra to my anxiety. It was so long ago. I can’t do anything about it now. It doesn’t always work, but I’m learning not to sweat the little things or the little people.

It was so long ago that I dated that frat boy and made a fool out of myself. It was so long ago that I shut out my family in high school. It was so long ago that I slipped and fell in the middle of the student center during the lunch rush. It was so long ago, I can’t do anything about it now. I can only try to grow and be better.

hc
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When Life Gets Boring

I have a lot of plans. I want to go a lot of places, do a lot of things, and just be happy. But life can’t be exciting all the time and I unfortunately have to do a lot of boring things to get to the fun things.

Because you have to work to make money and you have to have money to travel. And you need experience in the job field to get a better job so you have to stay where you are for a couple of years to get there.

And it just puts all of the plans on hold and eventually life gets a little boring.

I have a lot to look forward to. I have vacations planned bi-monthly. I have my weekends booked with fun activities. But it still never seems like enough and the waiting drives me crazy.

What do you do when life gets a little boring? When you feel like you’ve been waking up at 7:00 AM everyday for the past two years and have nothing to show for it. Like you’ve just been a zombie.

Of course it’s not true, I’ve done plenty of things. My life is not boring and exciting things are on their way. And most of the time it’s not a problem, I enjoy everything I’m doing on a daily basis. But sometimes life gets boring and I just want to fast forward to the fun parts, which is no way to live. Just flying through life to get to the excitement, just working for the weekend.

What do you do when life gets boring?

hc
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