I think big picture in the way that I can’t wait to reach that big picture. I get overly excited about the future, about the things to come, so much so that I don’t really live in the present.
I think big picture, but I don’t think of all the little pieces I need to put together to get there.
That part of the process honestly stresses me out. When I have this big idea, dream, or notion of the future – I just want to do it and I want to do it now. I’ll think about things like where I want to live ideally, my dream job, getting another dog, traveling again, going to concerts again. And I get uneasy knowing that none of those things are immediate and a lot of those things require work.
It might be laziness or just an overactive imagination. But I just want to get to the big picture already. I want to experience the “things will get better” kind of life everyone is always talking about.
Maybe I’m already living it and I just can’t see it, mindfulness and presence is just something I’ve never been good at. I try to appreciate what I have in the moment, but the ins and outs of adult stress is just a lot sometimes.